Saturday, September 29, 2012

Hello?

I moment ago I took the dog out in the front yard. It is a beautiful, clear, autumn night. I looked up to see a blanket of stars. The air was full of the sound of fireworks (?) and the local high school band playing at the football game. The scent of a fire wafted up from a neighbor's yard. It was a few minutes of deep and satisfying peace.

This transition from full time momming to full time teaching has been a lot. It is almost as jarring and intense as the transition to being a parent. It's only been six weeks so we're still in that newborn haze. I am only now, just a little bit, coming up for air. I miss this online community fiercely, though I don't have too much time to dwell on it...

Things are happening here. School and field trips and croup and new experiences and dog cancer (he's okay now, but whoa) . Most Some days feel barely together, like the universe is bound by nothing more than a prayer and an old rubber band.

I would love for someone to tell me this will get even a little bit easier. If you know that it really won't then you just shush.

Are you still out there? How are you?

9 comments:

bluedaisy said...

So glad to "see" you but I figured you've had plenty to keep you busy. I completely understand your feelings of things being held together by an old rubber band. I'm just doing the part-time thing for now but some days, I'm not sure I can keep moving forward.

As for the full time gig, I don't know if thinking of it in terms of easier/harder really captures the process. I think it's more the idea of figuring out where all the pieces fit again. And I think you will get there :)

Heather said...

Glad to have you back! The full time thing is really hard, isn't it? This year especially it's been getting to me too. I sometimes get home from a full day of work and don't get a chance to sit down and relax until 8:00 or later. Hang in there though! You'll make it!

Giselle said...

Good to hear from you. I can't tell you anything except I admire what you are doing and going through. And always my mantra during that newborn phase...Just keep swimming, just keep swimming...

Jill said...

hi! excited to see your post. glad you're doing 'okay' and making the transition

Pam said...

I'm glad you are "back" I misse you! Sorry to hear about your dog though - I hope all is well now. Working full time is hard enough but teaching is so exhausting isn't it. Of course it will get better - once you've taught the subject once and got all your materials together it has to be easier the next time right?

AM said...

I think as you get into the swing, and really 6 weeks is not much time to get into a new routine, it will even out. I was spoiled this semester. I had a full week off from classes 3 weeks in. Now that really derailed me. Anyway, It will get better.

Chris said...

So great to hear from you! I could be looking with rose-colored glasses, but it WILL get easier. The kids get more mature and more independent and more able to adapt as they grow, which will help, at least I think so. You will figure out what works (and what doesn't). I do miss speaking to you!

MamaK said...

totally gets easier, or falls into place as Janie said. Ditto'ing everyone else's supportive comments too :)

CARRIE said...

Yeah! You're alive! Maybe next summer you can distill some of your experience and thoughts into your blog to help gals like me when it is our turn to transition back to the working world?